Self-esteem is self-respect.. But do I have self-esteem???
Someone has made me feel like mention this form of word.. But do I have "self-esteem"?? I kept on reflecting it. In the end, I was thinking maybe I have very high self-esteem. But due to some causes, and maybe that some "causes" had completely destroy or destroy most of my self-esteem.. Because of one time, I had put my pictures on 1 of the website. And someone used it for some bad purposes and causes a very big and bad event to happen.. Fortunately, now it's over..
But still, there is some shadow left behind.. I started to be very sensitive in putting my photographs on the net, started to dislike shooting, started to hate my looks and some negative effects.. I want to be good-looking, want to look nice. And when I feel that I am nice enough maybe I might be able to stand up again..
Last time, I can be so confidence until even one of my ex best-friend said "Oh man! You are so confidence in yourself until I felt like boxing you". That time, I was thinking "Isn't having high self-confidence good?".
But now, I found that I might not be as strong and confidence in myself then before.. Now I'm still wondering how can I be so negative and sensitive. This is not like me.. I hope to get this out.. Really, get this damn thing out of me..
Anyway, thanks to the people around me. They gave me lots and lots of support. Luv all of ya!
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