t0day, i t0t w0uld b3 a pr3tty gd day d3.. cos in th3 mornin, i m really feelin gd.. c0s sx sms m3 sw33t things in th3 mornin..
as i told sx tt i end lessons at 4, n i 4gt to count one more hr.. so careless.. n ard 4.15, he sms me askin me hav my lesson end?? i dint reply.. cos im still havin lessons.. till 5, he sms me again n asked wad i m doin.. i felt so sweet.. cos really o.. the feelin being care is rather nice.. he called me when i replied him.. duno y, i sorta sense tt he gt somethin to ask me.. i also duno y i would asked him did he gt somethin to tell me..
n cos of im on mrt, mrt travellin through tunnel.. the reception sux n make our call ends... at 1st on phone, he dun wana tell or ask me abt tt "somethin" de.. gt to noe the phone is being cut by poor reception, so i smsed him n apologised for the sucky reception.. n i also asked him wad he wana say.. at 1st he dun wanna tell me de.. but i insisted, tellin him tt im really sad n sorta abit angry.. cos wadever im thinkin, i will juz tell him frankly.. n in order of nt makin me sad, he told me wad is the thingy he is thinkin.. its abt the prob between kh, sx n me de.. as for further details, i skip tt.. ^^
to me, kh is a special person.. a really special one.. n i duno wad to say abt hw special he is.. mayb when im sad or being bother, he is there to hear me out.. tt's y he is special.. or even more.. i also duno hw to describe.. n to me, sx is the person i really really like nw..
duno wad else to say.. in fact i tell kh more things than i tell sx.. haiz.. i duno wad else to say le.. nw im vexed.. dun really noe worryin abt wad... cos i juz tell sx all the things tt i shld.. thinkin of givein him sometime to digest ba.. dun wanna disturb him from thinkin n digestin.. im a bad bad person.. i juz noe, i m a bad person in core.. haha....... in fact, the little me is cryin deep inside.. ^^
<3 7:09 PM
Sunday, May 14, 2006
stupid me.. i duno wad's wrong wif me man.. juz duno y, nowadays so no mood.. end up makin a person around me so no mood also.. i think cos i no mood, he also no mood le ba.. i duno.. seems to b like i m makin him feelin bad or smth.. or cos of im scare of smth.. haiz..
wad m i fear of man.. hip hop audition, i dint go.. cos i freak out.. sux.. haiz.. i so useless.. always bold in anythin, heck care hw ppl think de me.. end up bcome a timid n useless me.. i hate it man.. cos it sux!!
sick n tired of tis useless me.. i wan back the original me.. izzt bcos i gt smthin tt i like le or too care abt it le, n afraid to lose it.. so bcome the timid of doin anythin.. haiz.. stupid me.. juz bcos he is nt free n doin other things, i wan him to talk to me.. n yet, he is doin other stuff.. i dun wanna restrict him.. juz wan him to talk to me more, izzt so difficult?? well.. i dun wanna restrict, yet wan him to talk to me more.. pay more attention to me.. but it also seems to b like restrict him.. im so mao dun... i really hate tis kind of me.. gosh..
mayb i like him more than i think i would b?? i also duno.. a impossible bloomin relation make me so timid... damn idiot.. juz hate it.. no secure.. mei you zhen shi gan.. ppl ask whether i hav bf anot.. i also duno hw to ans.. juz so mao dun.. if i ans, m i goin to say yes?? or no?? i like him.. yet, so insecure.. mayb i need too many "secure" le ba.. i also duno.. for instance, my cousin asked, u 2 really in real stead le o?? i also duno hw to ans... i juz say i duno counted anot... haha.. stupid me.. but i really duno... mayb is like wad my friend say de ba.. we juz a game couple onli.. although hav feelings for each other, but might nt b alot.. n mayb i hav think too much le ba... juz so timid n scare of losin it..
he juz unable to reply me onli, n yet it turn my mood into a bad bad one.. haiz.. y im like tt?? insecure?? pms?? gosh... i hate it... =(
<3 4:44 PM
Saturday, May 06, 2006
tian tian dou xu yao ni ai, wo de xing shi you ni cai, I love you, wo jiu shi yao ni rang wo mei tian dou jing cai
tian tian ba ta gua zhui bian dao di shen me shi zhen ai I love you dao di you ji fen shuo de bi xiang xiang geng kuai
shi wo men gang qing feng fu tai kang kai hai shi shang tian ang pai shi wo men ben lai jiu shi na yi ban hai shi she bu de tai guai shi na yi chi yue ding le mei you lai rang wo ku de xiang xiao hai shi wo men ji zhe zheng ming wo chun zai hai shi bu ai hui fa dai
baby bu de bu ai, bu zhi kuai le chong he er lai, bu de bu ai, fang xia bei shang chong her er lai, bu de bu ai, fou zhi wo jiu shi qu wei lai
hai xiang shen me you qi bu neng zhi ji shi bai ke shi mei tian dou guo de jing cai tian tian dou xu yao ni ai wo de xing zhi you ni zai I love you wo jiu shi yao ni rang wo mei tian dou jing cai
tian tian ba ta gua zhui bian dao di shen me shi zhen ai I love you dao di you ji fen shuo de bi xiang xiang geng kuai
RAP : I ask gal fren how you been lai qu le ji hui wo chong lai mei you xiang guo ai qing hui bian de ru chi wu nai, shi ming yun ma, nan dao nan guo shi shang tian de an pai, mei ban fa, tian tian de mei tian de xing shi dao di you shui lai pei, wo cheng xin, ni cheng yi dan zhou wei rao ren huan jin shi zhong rang wo men wu fa zai zhi li zhi you xiang lian wo jin cai, ni fa dai, liang ke xin bu an de yao bai, ying gai you de wei lai, shi fou zhen ne na me wu fa qi dai she bu de zai shang hai, you're my girl my girl my friend how much I love you so so much kan zhe ni ai chou yao wo ru he zhen me cheng shou mian dui I'm sorry you're my sweetheart my love my one and only baby
hui bu hui you yi dian wu nai hui bu hui you yi dian tai kuai ke shi ni gei wo de ai rang wo yang cheng le yi lai xing zhong chong man ai de jie pai
tian tian dou xu yao ni ai wo de xing shui you ni zai I love you wo jiu shi yao rang ni mei tian dou jing cai
tian tian ba ta gua zhui bian dao di shen me shi zhen ai I love you dao di you ji fen shuo de bi xiang xiang geng kuai
