stupid me.. i duno wad's wrong wif me man.. juz duno y, nowadays so no mood.. end up makin a person around me so no mood also.. i think cos i no mood, he also no mood le ba.. i duno.. seems to b like i m makin him feelin bad or smth.. or cos of im scare of smth.. haiz..
wad m i fear of man.. hip hop audition, i dint go.. cos i freak out.. sux.. haiz.. i so useless.. always bold in anythin, heck care hw ppl think de me.. end up bcome a timid n useless me.. i hate it man.. cos it sux!!
sick n tired of tis useless me.. i wan back the original me.. izzt bcos i gt smthin tt i like le or too care abt it le, n afraid to lose it.. so bcome the timid of doin anythin.. haiz.. stupid me.. juz bcos he is nt free n doin other things, i wan him to talk to me.. n yet, he is doin other stuff.. i dun wanna restrict him.. juz wan him to talk to me more, izzt so difficult?? well.. i dun wanna restrict, yet wan him to talk to me more.. pay more attention to me.. but it also seems to b like restrict him.. im so mao dun... i really hate tis kind of me.. gosh..
mayb i like him more than i think i would b?? i also duno.. a impossible bloomin relation make me so timid... damn idiot.. juz hate it.. no secure.. mei you zhen shi gan.. ppl ask whether i hav bf anot.. i also duno hw to ans.. juz so mao dun.. if i ans, m i goin to say yes?? or no?? i like him.. yet, so insecure.. mayb i need too many "secure" le ba.. i also duno.. for instance, my cousin asked, u 2 really in real stead le o?? i also duno hw to ans... i juz say i duno counted anot... haha.. stupid me.. but i really duno... mayb is like wad my friend say de ba.. we juz a game couple onli.. although hav feelings for each other, but might nt b alot.. n mayb i hav think too much le ba... juz so timid n scare of losin it..
he juz unable to reply me onli, n yet it turn my mood into a bad bad one.. haiz.. y im like tt?? insecure?? pms?? gosh... i hate it... =(
