woot! l0ng t1m3 d1nt bl0g l3.. i n03 many ppl miss me alot!! LOLX!
w3ll.. nowadays, i can counted as duno is happy or abit kong xu.. c0s KH come to sg le.. and nw he is currently stayin at my hse... wakakak.. >.< dun xiang yao yao o~! we dint do anythin which is hanky panky one.. cos no onli my parents warned me, my cousinSSS also warned me..
and on that few weeks ago, i really go to msia le.. but guess wad? my er jie gt to call me during tt period of time.. and i duno y she juz hav to get soooo angry and sad, and like announce to the whole world tt i went to msia and blah blah blah blah.. end up her frien use her phone to call me and talked to me abt KH workin stuff AS WELL AS sayin me this and that.. and say wad, "dun be silly silly de hor. lata genna cheated also duno. and u still can go to msia alone."
WAH! duno y, when i heard that, i really feelin like slappin my sis on her face rite on, as well as her frien norx.. kaoz.. i noe im sooo damn rude la.. but did she need to do until like tt?? Wadever she says, i juz try to keep my mouth shut and treat it like a wind juz blow by.. but wad the fuck lo.. even if i do somethin against her wish, so she need to announce it to the world ma?! sickenin.. but xhj say alot of reasons to me b4 i get to noe tt she announce it to the world.. i also tried to understand.. but when her frien says tt i really really dun feel like callin her as my sis le lo.. wad the fuk lo.. did i really hav to do anythin tt MUZ b goin along with wad she want me to?! did i?! and wad she do when she was my age, was even worst than me lo.. nvm.. dun talk abt it le..
then nw neh~! KH living under one roof wif me and my family ^^ but when i think further.. although i might gt a stable relationship le.. but i hav lost my er jie... feel abit kong xu.. cos er jie and me dun wanna talk to each other.. haiz.. but me and him doin gd.. so nw.. i duno la.. heck care currently norx.. i hope one day they will noe tt i wun chose the wrong guy.. i believe him..
<3 9:57 PM
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
Ytd me n KH sms each other.. i told him tt i wanna go find him.. then he said, "if can come find me, then gd.. but cant then nvm.."
i asked, "y say tt?? izzt tt u dun wan me to go?? =X"
he said,"do u think tt i dun wan u to come?? i want! but juz tt i cant b so selfish.. "
when he said tt, i was sorta touched.. i was thinkin, actually its nt tt he ask me to go find him.. but i m the one who wanted to see him, who wanted to meet him.. so its like... nt him, but me..
i m the one wanted to see him.. i really wan to.. so i make my decision.. I M GOIN.. but nt tellin anyone except my mum n bro.. n anyone who see tis, can u help me keep the secret too?? ok la.. since i wrote it here, its nt a secret anymore.. but i juz hope tt no one SAID my mum, who u think she let me go.. but in fact, she is quite object abt it.. i m the one who is rebellion enuff to say tt i wanna go.. i was thinkin instead of askin her "may i go??", i will juz tell her tt i m goin.. and dun let anyone in the family noe.. i dun wan anyone to get hurt, juz a case of ME goin to msia..
i noe peopl around me really cares about me.. but juz tt, i hope i can hav a little freedom in my 1st relationship.. i really hope.. in fact, i hav a lot of freedom le.. hehe =X but juz tt freedom to meet him.. n seeing him.. i m juz such a greedy person isn't it?? but i think tt luv is juz so greedy sometime ba..
N thx for ju ju and anoymous for supportin me.. hehe =X although i still duno who is anoymous is.. but thx for ur encouragement.. Xp
my decision is to go find him.. wakakaka..
and if tis time de relationship failed, then i could onli say tt i got to learn nt to luv and believe someone as easily as tis time le.. so juz let me learn if i really see a wrong person.. >.<
to me, every part of my life is a lesson to learn.. as some of the down parts makes us reliease some important points of it.. ^^
and i noe, when i m really down, there will always friends n family out there to give me a place to cry, think n recover.. i noe tt.. cos i believe that i gt true friends, sistas and family will b there for me.. i noe i cant take for granted of it.. i will treasure it.. i will try my best to treasure it as much as possible.. i will.. can u guyz believe me?? >.<
