Ytd me n KH sms each other.. i told him tt i wanna go find him.. then he said, "if can come find me, then gd.. but cant then nvm.."
i asked, "y say tt?? izzt tt u dun wan me to go?? =X"
he said,"do u think tt i dun wan u to come?? i want! but juz tt i cant b so selfish.. "
when he said tt, i was sorta touched.. i was thinkin, actually its nt tt he ask me to go find him.. but i m the one who wanted to see him, who wanted to meet him.. so its like... nt him, but me..
i m the one wanted to see him.. i really wan to.. so i make my decision.. I M GOIN.. but nt tellin anyone except my mum n bro.. n anyone who see tis, can u help me keep the secret too?? ok la.. since i wrote it here, its nt a secret anymore.. but i juz hope tt no one SAID my mum, who u think she let me go.. but in fact, she is quite object abt it.. i m the one who is rebellion enuff to say tt i wanna go.. i was thinkin instead of askin her "may i go??", i will juz tell her tt i m goin.. and dun let anyone in the family noe.. i dun wan anyone to get hurt, juz a case of ME goin to msia..
i noe peopl around me really cares about me.. but juz tt, i hope i can hav a little freedom in my 1st relationship.. i really hope.. in fact, i hav a lot of freedom le.. hehe =X but juz tt freedom to meet him.. n seeing him.. i m juz such a greedy person isn't it?? but i think tt luv is juz so greedy sometime ba..
N thx for ju ju and anoymous for supportin me.. hehe =X although i still duno who is anoymous is.. but thx for ur encouragement.. Xp
my decision is to go find him.. wakakaka..
and if tis time de relationship failed, then i could onli say tt i got to learn nt to luv and believe someone as easily as tis time le.. so juz let me learn if i really see a wrong person.. >.<
to me, every part of my life is a lesson to learn.. as some of the down parts makes us reliease some important points of it.. ^^
and i noe, when i m really down, there will always friends n family out there to give me a place to cry, think n recover.. i noe tt.. cos i believe that i gt true friends, sistas and family will b there for me.. i noe i cant take for granted of it.. i will treasure it.. i will try my best to treasure it as much as possible.. i will.. can u guyz believe me?? >.<
